Tuesday, June 12, 2007 @ 1:30 PM
F*** me lar!!! Easily get pissed off wen fetchn Saf frm camp...haizz...din turn out e way i expected though. Im sorry for being selfish n a jerk juz now...juz felt upset tt i cudnt spent more tyme wif u..hope u wud forgive me.

While chatting wif her juz nw, b4 telling her to go to sleep, i felt like crying but i hold back my tears. At 1st cudnt tink of any possible reason y i felt like im no longer myself. Aft lots of thinking, i found out y. I missed her alots during her 3 day absence....no msg frm her n juz total silence. I ran away frm the feeling of not having her arnd but i cudn't cntrl myself; i wud keep thinking tt she wud msg me at night. She did so one nite but i brushed her away by not expandin the conversation.I was tryin to put myself in her shoes wen i left her for abt 10 days....goin to OBS n Mt ophir...She muz felt really sad n lonely wen im gone. Im sorry dear.

Nw, i regret the decision i made. Juz to ease my aching heart, i ignored her request n fetched her frm camp. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! if only i heed her, there wouldn't be any quarrel btwn us...haizzz....stupid me, hope there was a car tt's goin to hit me wen im on the street. Tt way i wont cause trouble to others anymore. If im still alive aft tt, i''ll be slow n less observant. Tt way i wont be able to tell ppl's action anymore; no more mizunderstanding.

The quarrel has been settle but i cnt forget abt it. Hope by writing wad i feel on my blog wud make it a memory wich i cn hardly recall. To all those who read tis post hope u wont be offended. i juz write wad i feel n i apologies if u r offended.