Be strong Nash. You're just a nobody. Everyone has a choice.
Envy is normal....don't keep it anymore, just share it.

Stop driving yourself to the brink of insanity.

This blog where hardly anyone reads will be a place for you to vent out.
It's not as much as someone listening to you but every little thing counts right?

Maybe the upcoming blow might kill you though. But knowing yourself, you'll just go ahead with it. Showing others that you're strong mentally, emotionally and physically; when everything settles, your insecurities and negativity will just hit your mind like a tsunami.

Will she eat away the last straw of confidence that's left in your heart? Why are you so eager to wage it?
Do you not care bout what would happen to yourself and also to both of you?
Or have you gone bored with life that you willing to risk it away?
Was it envy that rushes you to this conclusion?
Or was it that your heart aches when she's with another?

When it comes to being professional, you handle it brilliantly. However,when it comes to your life, you let emotions carry you most of the time.

Whatever the future is, I do hope you'll be able to blog again and not a leap of faith to bring a sudden end to what you've done, built and accomplished. The scars that etched in your memories, heart and here...I hope you carry it all till you die of old age.

Yours sincerely,
Nash.